Where the hell is this country going to?

Within the space of 8 days this country has spiraled out of control. Ever since the murder of Theo van Gogh things have gone from bad to worse. Sure, there were a lot of problems before that, we're not exactly the openminded paradise that tourists make us out to be, but right now I'm just fear for this country.

I fear for a country being led by fear. So often we in Europe critisiced the US, how it's so obvious that everything is driven by fear. People don't come closer and don't want to come closer. Fear is a way to rule the country. But right now, look at us! Filthy disgusting sensation seaking newspapers (TELEGRAAF!!!) reporting half-thruth to awaken the fear and hate in people. Sickening, no other words for it.

I'm so sick of it. I just want to close my eyes and hide away. I can't take it anymore. I don't want to hear anymore of it. First the murder last week on Tuesday ([link]) and then all the fires and bombs and whatever the hell it was that went on in the Hague today ([link] ).

I don't want to hear any of it anymore. Not another mosque set to fire, not another mosque being smeared with shit or racist words. Not another church set to fire, not another muslim school being blown up by a bomb. I don't want to get into another arguement with my dad over his racist talk, not another arguement with a collegue for being so fucking ignorant and racist. I know people need to be pointed in the right direction, show them that the world is not black and white, but right now I'm just too tired. I can't do it. I just wish it to go away, for me to go asleep and it all being a bad dream..

Where the fuck are we all going to? Are we truely going insane over here? What the hell has happened to my country?